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to my first FCE exam..

and… I'm desperate… why? because i feel like i’m a failure.. oh wait i’ve already said that.. XD but it’s true –.- Today i’ve stayed home to do what? study and finish my stupid presentation of japanese gardens [yeah i think i’ll just fail because.. there’s nothing interesting in what i’m doing… T_T the only people who could have been interested are not part of the delegation of professors who will judge me.. SIGH] and what have i done so far? Ended the channel page on viki for The greatest love, subbed 2 parts, and watched again Playful kiss.. i’m just hopeless indeed.. rightnow it’s 4pm and i’ve done NOTHING so far.. =_= my exam is in 14 days.. i wonder if i’ll change attitude next year when i’ll go to the university or what.. because if i don’t i think i’m really ill..

2 days ago happened something i’d never thought could happen to me… a guy had kept asking me to go out with him but as i don’t know him and i neither have feelings for him, i’d never answered his messages.. then i just got sick of it and decided to go out with him and tell him face to face i had no interest in him.

The only things i was able to obtain was a ice cream –.- he kept asking and asking to get a yes, but i kept answering "NO I’M SORRY” but he hasn’t accepted it –.- he tried to kiss me twice i was like “mmh.. yes.. i won’t show any reaction if you want to kiss a pole, go on!” so at the end he gave up that thing xD

I mean.. when you confess, it doesn’t mean you have to get no matter what a positive reaction. if i say no, it’s no! i’m not saying it because i’m shy or what

I

JUST

DON’T

WANT

TO

GO

OUT

WITH

YOU.

=_=

I also tried to tell him i wanted to move and go to the other side of the world but.. nothing.. –.- damn.. whatever –.- i hope i wont have to meet him again.. =_=

JJ is waiting for me, isn’t he? *dies*

anyway… i've got an exam.. T________________T

and tomorrow will be my last days as a high school student YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOODBYE STUPID BUILDING UAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA