Yep ok I’ve decided to get back to this blog because even though Twitter is faster, in the end all my updates ends being forgotten…so…. I’d better write everything here too.. starting with some of the dreams I had these days… because they were too strange… I’m still shocked at the idea..
I was with my class mates (high school class mates ) on a seaside city and for some reasons that I can’t remind I was put to death with one of my friends.. the reason was really silly and I couldn’t find it right but I neither could do anything to change it.. the only positive thing was I wouldn’t have suffered.. or at least that was what I was thinking.. because after a bit I could clearly hear people screaming in pain inside the mortal chamber… I started being really really scared and when my name was called I was about to cry.. I was saying “I can’t die, I still haven’t seen JaeJoong., or better i ‘ve seen him but I’ve never got to meet him and talk to him… I can’t die till that moment..” nevertheless I was put inside the chamber.. boiling water started to flow but luckily I was able to find an upper place to refuge.. I could clearly see the water be higher and higher. suddenly it stopped flowing. I heard people outiside going away.
I then decided to try to leave that place and strangely the door was open.. I ran on the opposite side of the building and entered a huge back store of a korean market with an old korean man inside.. I looked at him scared and he helped me saving my life.. at least I guess so…
I just know that when I got up I was so shocked… it’s not the first time I dream of being killed… by gun, by poison… why??
I was back in mu high school days.. but in a different environment, like high schools in the US. my class mates were.. DB5K.. I was having a basketball match with them, and had the best time with YunHo and Changmin who spent most of the time teasing and playing with me. they were so kind to me (and so handsome). yet I kept looking at a guy not playing with much interest.. called.. Jaejoong.. I had a crush on him, but as always had no gut to approach him and try to confess. he was the unreachable perfect guy.
I was once again in Berlin for JYJ concert. After the concert, my cousin decided to look for them because she wanted to meet them (though I don’t get why since she thinks they’re all girl and stupid… ._. ) but I decided not to because it wasn’t respectful.
the next day I woke up quite early and dragged along my 2 friends to go to a store for DIY stuff.. well while I was browsing some stuff I saw Min and Ho a couple of meters in front of me I was O_O “why are they here??”
I approached them and asked for a picture together with Changmin in korean and when he asked me if I had understood wheat he was saying and I nodded, he started laughing at me sure I couldn’t be able to understand. I was so upset because as I explained I was studying Korean and so I was able to understand quite well what he was saying.. in the end whilst my friend was taking the pic, I saw Jaejoong passing by, so I went away and started following him. when I grabbed him though, it wasn’t Jaejoong.. just a look-alike man…
Once again.. the unreachable guy for me. Always and Forever I guess